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No Time To Breathe

Thu Nov 12, 2009, 5:02 PM
I feel so horrid that I haven't updated this in a while. I have been very preoccupied with my new life. I moved into my own place, began dating someone new and am learning the hard reality of being on my own. I am strapped for cash like hell. But there's a man who plays guitar and sings to me at night. I am in bliss but scared out of my mind. I feel like I'm totally winging it right now.

It took me until age 26 to become fully independent. I am happy. I have taken steps in my life to confront the demons of the past that were eating away at me like a cancer. I said things that should've been said 14 years ago. I have stood up for myself and have complete total control over my life. I finally earned respect and self respect.

I love it. I love it more and more every day. I'm not angry or enraged like I used to be. For once in my life I feel very calm. There is no need to get worked up about things because it will all pan out as it is intended. I don't care what others think. I am doing what my heart (and sometimes my brain) tells me to do. I am trying to avoid behavioral patterns. But at the same time I am viewing life as so short and precious. I want to live every moment with no regrets.

I am sure I've hurt people. I'm sure I've stepped on the dreams of others to get here.

It isn't my problem. I spent years suffering in silence. Keeping my mouth shut over things that never should have happened.

I finally got closure. I am at peace.

Nothing on this earth will ever control me like that again.

And besides being smitten in love with the new boyfriend... I haven't had a chance to look up at anything except the happiness that surrounds me.

What a curve ball! Maybe by Christmas I'll finally get those pictures from San Francisco developed.

Right now it's "eat, and have a roof over my head." Priorities! :giggle:

  • Mood: Worried
  • Listening to: Lacuna Coil - The Pain
  • Drinking: The souls of the infidels....

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  • Current Residence: Mesa, Arizona
  • Print preference: Matte Finish
  • Interests: Fighting Monsters...
  • Favourite movie: Shaun of the Dead, Hot Fuzz, Run Fat Boy Run, Stardust
  • Favourite band or musician: Hooverphonic, Delerium, Lacuna Coil, Nine Inch Nails
  • Favourite genre of music: Alternative, Dark Metal, Industrial
  • Favourite artist: Chad Michael Ward
  • Favourite poet or writer: Terry Pratchett
  • Favourite photographer: Brian Southwell
  • Favourite style of art: Digital Surrealism
  • Operating System: Windows Vista
  • MP3 player of choice: Win AMP
  • Favourite game: Warhammer: Age of Reckoning
  • Favourite gaming platform: PC
  • Personal Quote: "Perfectionism is the highest order of self-abuse." - Author Unknown
  • Tools of the Trade: My insanity*, creativity, and eccentricity...

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Comments


:iconsags:
Yes! It's me again Yes! ME...

:giggle:

Ta for the two ! :)


Brian...
:iconsags:
Hi! Lady :clap;

Lovely to hear from you..Thanks for the fav'

I'm still waiting for the filummms to be developed ! :)

I have a look from time to time on facebook !! Pleased to see that you are thriving

:clap:


Brian :)
:iconreliquiae:
I have been so busy! And I moved so funds are tight and I can't the film developed yet! Oh the woe!

:D You are very welcome for the fave.

--
"Inside every living person is a dead person waiting to get out" -Terry Pratchett, Reaperman

-R. :frail:
:iconsags:
Better busy than not ! :)
:iconsags:
Seems I'm the only one appearing hereabouts !!! such is FAME ! :giggle:

Thanks for the fav'

Hope all is well !

Brian:)
:iconreliquiae:
All is great! The trip to San Francisco is this weekend! 8 rolls of film. I hope it's enough. VERY EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :giggle:

--
"Inside every living person is a dead person waiting to get out" -Terry Pratchett, Reaperman

-R. :frail:
:iconsags:
Yes! Yes! It's me again !!

Thanking you again !! :)


Brian
:iconreliquiae:
hahahaha. I told ya awhile back that I may as well favorite your entire gallery!!!!

--
"Inside every living person is a dead person waiting to get out" -Terry Pratchett, Reaperman

-R. :frail:
:iconsags:
My pleasure!! No Charge :)
:iconsags:
And again this morning :clap:
Brian :)

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